Loooong update

It's been a while since I posted, things have been pretty boring. We went on vacation a couple of weeks ago, and to be honest, eating was a chore. We went to lunch at this place and I had some chicken. It was a very dry chicken, and it didn't sit well with me. I had spent my meal watching what I believed to be a hooker and a less than desirable looking gentlemen. He left, I assumed to go to the ATM, and I was waiting for him to come back. The chicken was coming up whether I saw the hooker leave or not, so I headed for the bathroom. When I came back they were gone. Don't ask me why I care, I'm a freakshow. I do believe that the band has naturally relaxed a little bit. I cancelled my fill last week because I feel like I'm in a good place. Some days I do fine, but then there are days that aren't so fine. Today was one of those.

I went to lunch today at Red Lobster. I had about half of my salad, and then I had six pretty small shrimp scampi's and six pretty small breaded shrimps and a baked potato. By small, I mean about 2/3 the size of your pinky. So it wasn't as if there was a ton of food there. But when you consider that I struggle with half of a burger, it was like gorging myself at a seafood festival. I didn't drink anything at all, (I have made that mistake in the past just because I was dying of thirst and it pretty much came right back up)but as I sat there, full as a tick, I had a feeling. I held my napkin in front of me, but then I knew that it was going to get ugly. Do not read further if you are weak stomached.

I went to the bathroom and the saliva was pouring. Then it was pretty much a free for all. It didn't hurt at all, but it wasn't fun. It was all my fault, and I wanted to kick my own butt, but that's pretty much impossible. I waited too long to eat, I was really hungry and I ate too fast, and too much.

I'm losing weight, I think I'm at about 35 lbs but to be honest the inches are just really coming off. I have to remember to eat, or else I don't lose at all. One day I think I had a banana and some oatmeal all day and I actually gained 2 lbs. It's weird. I'm weird. The whole thing is weird.

Things that are a problem for me: bread of any kind, tortillas, some pastas, french fries (THANK GOODNESS), cake is definitely a no go. Even birthday cake. It sticks like spackle. Brownies, cookies, etc.

Things that I wish were a problem because they go down waaaay to easily: movie popcorn, cheetos, my beloved chocolate. I just like plain old Hershey chocolate, and I sort of just suck on it until it melts away. Ice cream, which I've never been a big fan of. But once you've had a taste of chocolate mojito, there's no going back.

Things that I tend to eat regularly: bananas, oatmeal, cream of wheat, cottage cheese, cheese with turkey on very thin veggie crackers, soup (my beloved tomato soup), rice, chicken that has been cooked in the crockpot (it makes it so tender and easy to eat), some pastas, if they are cooked the right way. I also have mashed or baked potatos, beans, shrimp, salad. Nothing that is considered "roughage" bothers me at all. I love any and all veggies. I crave fruit. I love fruit. I'll have thinly sliced cheese and apples, grapes, bananas, plums, peaches. When we were on vacation we hit the deli for some fruits and cheeses and had them in our hotel room. The kids were digging it so now our fridge is stocked up!

I also keep those Special K bars in my purse just in case and I try to keep OJ around in case I get shaky. I still drink water with lime, and tons of it. I also have iced tea, unsweetened of course. We went to a movie this past weekend and I had a few drinks of a diet coke. Honestly, there was not a single side effect, but I've really lost the taste for soda. It's just sort of icky to me. Yea! I don't even drink juice, except for OJ.

I've been taking those vitamins from GNC and my hair isn't falling out as much. Also, my hair looks better than it has in years right now. It's very soft, and bouncy. It had looked so bad for so long. I don't think I'm getting enough protein in my diet, and I do think that my weight loss could be more substantial if I balanced my meals better and added that protein. I'm sort of sustaining on fruit and carbs. Not so good.

Emotionally, all is well. I've had no regrets whatsoever about the band. I look forward to more weight loss, and feeling better and better every day.