Scale issues

I was getting pretty down. I felt like in spite of everything I was doing, I wasn't losing weight. My clothes were getting ridiculously too big, I wasn't eating hardly at all, and when I did I ate very little. Yet when I got on that stupid scale I weight 283 every stinking time. Since what? January?

So I bought a new scale. Just one of those cheap, old time scales with the little needle. And when I got on it, I weighed 260. Then I went to my Nanas and her scale said 260. I weighed my kids on both scales and they weighed the same on both. But I weighed on the old one, 283. Got on the new one, 260.

So, I've lost 20 lbs and didn't even know it. You can imagine how frustrated I was getting, going through all this and not losing.

I am going for a 3rd fill on Wed. I'm not sure if I need it or not, because I still get stuck if I even look at bread, crackers, stuff like that. To tell you the truth, eating is a pain in my neck. I don't want to do it, and I have to remind myself to do it most of the time. But if I don't eat, I don't lose. And I am guilty of the occasional Cheetos moment. I can eat popcorn at a movie, and I've drank diet coke but it doesn't taste good to me. I cannot drink water with meals and it's not an issue anymore. I made some chicken chow mein for my husband last Friday and it was wonderful. Fresh vegetables and chicken cooked in a wok. I had about 1/3 cup of rice, and maybe 1/2 cup of the chow mein. It took about 30 minutes or so to eat it and I was stuffed. But it was so healthy and I definitely am planning to make it at least once a week from now on. Yesterday I made some ribs, and roasted potato wedges. I think I was able to have about 2 of them and maybe an ounce of the ribs. Again, it took me about 30 minutes to eat it.

I'm still a work in progress. The old habits still creep up on me, especially when it comes to chocolate. Just plain old hershey chocolate. Nothing fancy. I don't polish off an entire easter bunny at once, and I think I do a pretty good job of watching my intake and not overdoing it. It's amazing how just sucking on a hershey kiss can fill that craving.

So, I'm down 50lbs pre pre-op diet. Not too shabby for less than 6mths. I still have a long way to go, but I'll get there.