I'm melting!

OK, I had strep throat and I was sick last week. But today I woke up and I've lost 10lbs since last week. To be honest, I have wondered if my band is too tight. But I am leaning towards thinking that it is where it is suppose to be and I just didn't expect so much restriction. I'm eating enough, I'm not hungry all the time, but I definitely get hungry when I haven't eaten in a few hours. I cannot eat certain things that I had heard were difficult to eat. Bread has it's moments, but it's not worth trying. I have no desire to drink with meals, in fact it is nearly impossible to do so. I did throw up twice last week, but I am almost sure it was because I was sick and I was taking the antibiotics on an empty stomach. I got stuck on a triscuit come to think of it. Triscuits are a definite no no. Chicken is easy for me to eat, I've heard some have had problems. Cookies, chips, etc. No go. Thank goodness because I heard that those are sometimes "slider" foods. Not for me. My birthday was Monday and I had a couple of tiny bites of my birthday cake but I started to feel like I was getting stuck. I'm definitely getting use to it.

Today I am going to lunch with my sister since I wasn't up for it on Monday. Going out to lunch, dinner, etc. is just not my thing now, and I use to love to do that, sit around and goof and laugh. Now it's just not something that I look forward to. I'm sure it will be fun because my sister is as fun as a hole in your pocket but the eating part is just uncomfortable. I feel so full that I can't breath after eating just a couple of bites.

So, the good news is that after nearly 3 months of not budging, I feel like I am literally melting over here. I'm dropping weight daily. It was worth it. I'm so motivated right now that it's ridiculous!

I'm so full

I'm one week out, and while the band is certainly tighter, it seems to be relaxing a little bit. The first few days it was almost too tight! I'm eating small amounts, several times a day. For example, if I were to have a sandwhich, I would eat it in quarters over the course of a couple of hours. Food gets stuck very easily so I have to be very careful to chew chew chew. Getting stuck is positively miserable! I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Well, there was a girl I knew about 10 years ago that I would like to see go through it but aside from her.

I went to lunch with my sister, and I have found that eating out is so much cheaper. I always order a kids meal, and I always bring at least half of it home. My family is not liking it because I have no desire to cook because I'm never really hungry.

I'm having problems not sleeping at night though. I don't think it has anything to do with the band, it's just something that is happening and it's wearing me out. I can't imagine what things will be like on the 3rd fill. I'm weighing tomorrow, since it will be one week since the fill. Here's to hoping.

Second Fill!

Today I went in for my second fill on my band. The first time I couldn't really tell anything, but this time it's very, very obvious. I took a drink after he filled it and I felt it stop, and then slowly trickle down. It's going down faster now, but it is insane how full I got at dinner!

The kids and I went with my mom and Nana to have Chinese. I ate 2 little slivers of broccoli beef, no broccoli. I had 1 little piece of some sort of chicken that wasn't breaded and 2 of those green beans. I love those. Oh and I had about 3 bites of rice. I was so full I felt miserable. This is what I have been waiting for! This is perfect.

When I weighed today at the docs I had only lost 3 lbs since my last appt. To be honest, I half expected to have gained. I feel very swollen and bloated and gross. But I wore some jeans from the back of my closet today that I haven't worn in a very long time. They were a little loose on me even. Whoo hoo!

I feel rejuvenated now after feeling a little down. So, on we go!

Very frustrated!

I'm not losing weight. I've had the one fill back on Jan. 6th. I called the doctor because I didn't want to wait 6 weeks, and I had an appt yesterday. Unfortunately I got horribly sick on Monday night and couldn't get the fill. I didn't eat for 2 days and I didn't lose so much as an ounce. I'm going to buy new scales tomorrow because either my body is alien-like or my scale is broken. This is a little bit ridiculous. I hope I didn't go through all this for nothing. I keep telling myself it's only been a couple of months, but I feel like something should be happening.

When I got sick the other night it was worse than you can imagine. It hurt so bad, nothing came up, it was violent and painful. I had fever so I shook constantly. I woke up the next morning so sore in my stomach and my back that I could barely move. Throwing up with the band is so bad.

But when I called the doctor to reschedule, the nurse got on the phone and told me to come in and let them empty my band. I cannot count how many times I told her that there was nothing to take out. I was no longer throwing up or even nauseous at that point and I was an hour away. My kids were both sick with the same virus and I wasn't going to get them out. She got all over my case and asked me if I was really going to just blatantly ignore the doctors orders. I'm not happy with her, in fact if it weren't for my complete trust in my doctor, I would not put up with his staff in general. It just added to my frustration.

I have found myself back sliding at times. Not in major ways, I'm not by any means doing things that I did before, but I'm still struggling with some things. Tonight I had a hotdog with my husband (it's a long story on my other blog)and I mean after one of those I was stuffed like a turkey! So I definitely have restriction, but not like I need to start losing. I go in next week for fill #2 and I'm just going to try and stay positive and move forward!